Choose what shows up

I know that my soul knew exactly what I wanted to experience when coming into this life, granted not everything is pre-determined but I chose the family, the region and this body including many other situations. All knowing this will help me in my evolution. Sometimes I wondered if I'm insane for some of these things but I understand now that every person, place and thing that has showed up in my life was all to help me learn. I'm not a victim of my reality but a creator of it all. And in hind sight I can see the gift handed to me, it's just a question of me accepting it as perfect at the time it's happening instead of catching on years later. I guess it's the concept of getting upset that I scrape my knee when I fall just to figure out that it taught me to run more carefully.

So I'm entering a place of acceptance for all that may show up in my life. Striving to stay in a constant meditation of this acceptance. One thing that helps me is a basic trust in myself (my soul) that it is all a gift and I'm only holding myself back if I judge it harshly. I envision my soul as the driver of this car (my life) and I'm the child in the backseat. I've spent most of this life with my soul taking me in the perfect direction while I'm sitting back there complaining about everything. I've always felt that there was something bigger out there than just what I see in front of me yet that didn't stop me from putting my dukes up and fighting what comes. Now I see that the something bigger is called life, the Universe and everything (42!) and it's all perfect. Plus, what I resist, persists. I believe that when we pull back from the weaving and see the tapestry, we will weep at the beauty of it. Amen!